:( My baby.... :( I can't see anything stuck in her foot, no bug bites... and it doesnt look like she sprained it but hell... I'm not a vet. :p

UPDATE: 10:48 PM-- No idea what was/is wrong with Beavers foot. There are no signs of a foreign object in her foot, no stings or bites that they can find. Xrays were fine, blood test was fine... No idea. :( So she's on pain pills, antibiotics, and benedryl and they want me to bring her back in 3 days. Anyone ever had this happen??? plz respond.

UPDATE: 11:22 PM APRIL 25th - Ok. I took her back yesterday (24th) because her foot swelled up and turned black :( Also, it started bleeding... A LOT!!! :O! She had two abscesses in her paw and they had to knock her out with meds and drain them then wash them out. She is now on another antibiotic and I have to wash out the openings every couple of hours. She also has to wear a silly cone and she keeps getting it caught on the ground when she tries to walk >< Poor doggie...

:O!!! Ty all for the birthday wishes! :) My sister surprised me and flew me out to Cali for a surprise party week and ALL my family was in town pretty much... <3 Of course I thought we were going out there because there had been a death... -_-;; So.. I packed like, a few grimy looking outfits and one black one o_o;; But I'm glad to know there wasn't a death the week before my birthday, right? So0o0o... Yeah. :D I didn't get anything crazy fancy or expensive (plane tickets for everyone was probably pricey enough.. plus hotels for the people that didnt crash at my parents or Aunts house. -_-) So yeah. It was fun though. Also forgive me I did not bring my camera since I thought I was going to a funeral when I left. (sounds like a strange fetish!)

:) May is coming up soon and THIS is my cam schedule for then! :D And until that time you can check my twitter and when I get on CamZ this week to do privates it will tweet for me. :) Feel free to come in and chat even if you aren't getting pvt chat :p I dont careeee :D :D :D :D xoxo

EDIT: Maybe one of my cousins took pics. :p Where I'm NOT drunk or looking like crap xD

:-3 Playing with my hair... just bought a set of hot pink hot rollers and-- well, don't quite have the hang of them yet but I'll get there I'm sure. Also, I bought some fun matching lipstick and toe nail polish because... I felt like being a goober. >:P and of all the colors, they are both Coral. o.o; I never ever in my life thought I would wear it but I am right now and I think it's sexy with my skin tone. :)  Hair a thumbs up? :p

Sorry for the coughing... I didnt realize it was so loud until I watched it after it uploaded. :( Anywho. I just drank some hot hot hot hot broth so I cant feel my throat much anymore yay :D

Doing a home facial that hopefully, will help out my recent skin issues. According to this awesome hippie lady I know from school, the problem is hormonal. I told her I had stopped doing the depo shot this year and she said that was probably it. So... hmm. I dunno. o.O I think I might need to see a dermatologist though. Which kinda sucks. -_- But anyway.

Other than that... today was my last day of class, and tomorrow I go to pick up some of my artwork from school. Now I need to start looking into other schools and... since no other places offer the same degree I was working on really... and I'm not interested in 1.) Graphic Design 2.) Computer Science or any of that... what will I do? Pick something totally new? I need to meditate...... :-O

Yes indeed... why the picture is so big, I dont know. But I'm too damn lazy to resize it. :-D Spicy pickled okra halves stuffed with fresh hummus and chillis. :) Totally.... delicious....  WOO!!

You know what... :-P I'm done with the stress, I'm done with the bullshit. Over the course of my PLANNED time spent at "School-That-Shall-Not-Be-Named"... I would have spent just under 90K!!! I realize that students take on debts. It's part of college. Whatever. Well, my monthly payments over the last year OUT OF POCKET have been around $1,000 at the first of every month. :-O Plus bills, food, gas, vet trips, etc... What could I have done with 12K? Bought a gently used car. Invested in a nice computer set up.  Finished furnishing my partially empty house. I can think of a million and one ideas. But... sitting in a classroom  while one of the main Web instructors preaches Adobe Classroom in a Book (I can do that at home, thank you) and getting treated like crap by the financial aid department, are two things I could have done without. But seriously. I can go to a regular University and get two B.A's and start work on my Masters for that price. No joke.

So... Here I am spring semester getting ready to pull out.... What will I do for the rest of the semester? Summer? Hmm... Back to community college until I can apply to a regular school? More cam-- yes. Put $ away for sure....  Of course, I should get back into something before 6 months passes, otherwise my school loans kick in for payback. So far I've had 23K in financial aid that needs to be paid back. :p Lame.

Anywho. I've been grumpy lately. :( Sorry. :) Hopefully there are better things to come.

This is what I wake up to every morning. Rambo likes to move around.. but usually stays on my feet. Beaver likes to lay with her head on my pillow and her feet in the air. :) Good morning puppiesss XD I have a lot of crap to do today... Oil Change, Taxes (I know shame on me for not filing yet but I needed my loan information and I couldn't find what I was sent in the mail ;_;) Grocery Shopping and HOMEWORK HOMEWORK HOMEWORK!!!!! ;____;

Hello!!! :) :) :) :) I'm back! No... I'm not dead. I'm also NOT pregnant-- the "baby" I was talking about last time I was on cam was my future GODSON... :) My sweet friend Loni is pregnant. But I am not. I am also not getting married...? and.. no I'm not leaving the adult industry. :p I've just been extremely busy. For ONE thing... My work was shown in a pretty badass art show. :) Originally some lady wanted to buy them from the student show I had them in. Then another lady got in touch with me saying she would love to have my work in the show. But... as part of the deal I had to help with behind the scenes stuff. And... as it turns out, I got more coffees for people and cleaned up more messes than really anything else. I felt like I was the gallery bitch. :( But.. it was a good experience atleast. I met some pretty neat old ladies. Anyway. :) I will be getting back onto CamZ for some privates this coming weekend... and... uhmmm.... :O hmm... I think thats all lol. Other than that, doggies are good, school is-- well... >:O infuriating actually. I'm upset with the financial aid department, I'm upset with a couple of big wigs in my program... I almost transferred out. I had a fucking meltdown in class because it just HIT me right in the face that private institutions can be REALLY fucking shady. But... :p That's not something I will ever talk your ear off about. haha. but yeah everything else is cool. :p Again, not dead preggo or hitched. That made me laugh.

Oi... I've very desperately needed to unwind lately. So... Yesterday and today have been my relax days. :) Yesterday I had an appointment at a great Spa here... Got a nice massage with aromatherapy, deep facial, etc... Today I did laundry, and am about to go get a mani and pedi. :) I also have been getting a lot of questions about what scents I'm wearing from strangers... lol. (Weird, people are sniffing me in public huh? I've also had that question on cam too... so... here's what I use to... smell good?

When I take a bath I put Dr Bronners (Lavendar) in the water. I use a very lightly scented patchouli soap on my body and a lavendar deep conditioner in my hair.  My shaving cream is one I make myself-- lotus, nag champa and honeysuckle. When I get out of the bath I put a baby oil gel concentrate on my feet to keep them nice and soft... depending on what kind of mood I'm in I have several fragrances. (Dior & Juicy are my fav desiginer shits...) but... the thing that gets the most questions is my Thunderstorm essence. :-o Smells like summer rain.. grass, dirt, uhm.. rain.. :-\ It's really weird. That combined with a tiny bit of essential oils and I constantly get ladies asking me "OMG what are you wearing that smells so good?" to which I want to tell them "Dirt." lol

Anywho... :) lol... Nail time for me. :) xoxo