Yes indeed… why the picture is so big, I dont know. But I’m too damn lazy to resize it. Spicy pickled okra halves stuffed with fresh hummus and chillis. Totally…. delicious….  WOO!!

You know what… I’m done with the stress, I’m done with the bullshit. Over the course of my PLANNED time spent at “School-That-Shall-Not-Be-Named”… I would have spent just under 90K!!! I realize that students take on debts. It’s part of college. Whatever. Well, my monthly payments over the last year OUT OF POCKET have been around $1,000 at the first of every month. :-O Plus bills, food, gas, vet trips, etc… What could I have done with 12K? Bought a gently used car. Invested in a nice computer set up.  Finished furnishing my partially empty house. I can think of a million and one ideas. But… sitting in a classroom  while one of the main Web instructors preaches Adobe Classroom in a Book (I can do that at home, thank you) and getting treated like crap by the financial aid department, are two things I could have done without. But seriously. I can go to a regular University and get two B.A’s and start work on my Masters for that price. No joke.

So… Here I am spring semester getting ready to pull out…. What will I do for the rest of the semester? Summer? Hmm… Back to community college until I can apply to a regular school? More cam– yes. Put $ away for sure….  Of course, I should get back into something before 6 months passes, otherwise my school loans kick in for payback. So far I’ve had 23K in financial aid that needs to be paid back. :p Lame.

Anywho. I’ve been grumpy lately. Sorry. Hopefully there are better things to come.

This is what I wake up to every morning. Rambo likes to move around.. but usually stays on my feet. Beaver likes to lay with her head on my pillow and her feet in the air. Good morning puppiesss XD I have a lot of crap to do today… Oil Change, Taxes (I know shame on me for not filing yet but I needed my loan information and I couldn’t find what I was sent in the mail ;_;) Grocery Shopping and HOMEWORK HOMEWORK HOMEWORK!!!!! ;____;

Hello!!! I’m back! No… I’m not dead. I’m also NOT pregnant– the “baby” I was talking about last time I was on cam was my future GODSON… My sweet friend Loni is pregnant. But I am not. I am also not getting married…? and.. no I’m not leaving the adult industry. :p I’ve just been extremely busy. For ONE thing… My work was shown in a pretty badass art show. Originally some lady wanted to buy them from the student show I had them in. Then another lady got in touch with me saying she would love to have my work in the show. But… as part of the deal I had to help with behind the scenes stuff. And… as it turns out, I got more coffees for people and cleaned up more messes than really anything else. I felt like I was the gallery bitch. But.. it was a good experience atleast. I met some pretty neat old ladies. Anyway. I will be getting back onto CamZ for some privates this coming weekend… and… uhmmm…. :O hmm… I think thats all lol. Other than that, doggies are good, school is– well… >:O infuriating actually. I’m upset with the financial aid department, I’m upset with a couple of big wigs in my program… I almost transferred out. I had a fucking meltdown in class because it just HIT me right in the face that private institutions can be REALLY fucking shady. But… :p That’s not something I will ever talk your ear off about. haha. but yeah everything else is cool. :p Again, not dead preggo or hitched. That made me laugh.

Oi… I’ve very desperately needed to unwind lately. So… Yesterday and today have been my relax days. Yesterday I had an appointment at a great Spa here… Got a nice massage with aromatherapy, deep facial, etc… Today I did laundry, and am about to go get a mani and pedi. I also have been getting a lot of questions about what scents I’m wearing from strangers… lol. (Weird, people are sniffing me in public huh? I’ve also had that question on cam too… so… here’s what I use to… smell good?

When I take a bath I put Dr Bronners (Lavendar) in the water. I use a very lightly scented patchouli soap on my body and a lavendar deep conditioner in my hair.  My shaving cream is one I make myself– lotus, nag champa and honeysuckle. When I get out of the bath I put a baby oil gel concentrate on my feet to keep them nice and soft… depending on what kind of mood I’m in I have several fragrances. (Dior & Juicy are my fav desiginer shits…) but… the thing that gets the most questions is my Thunderstorm essence. Smells like summer rain.. grass, dirt, uhm.. rain.. :-\ It’s really weird. That combined with a tiny bit of essential oils and I constantly get ladies asking me “OMG what are you wearing that smells so good?” to which I want to tell them “Dirt.” lol

Anywho… lol… Nail time for me. xoxo

;D Hot new website layout!! I’m stoked! and more to follow but I’ll update you on that as it happens.

Was sick yesterday (not like huge fever sick… but stuffed up in the head, talking all kinds of funny, blowing my nose every 2 seconds… not hungry…). So I skipped the cam show. COULDNT SLEEP though… because I couldn’t breathe well when I was laying down. My Neti pot wasn’t helping. I think it’s the weather. Anyway… I took some medicine to clear up the blockage and was KNOCKED out cold by like midnight… but Beaver woke me up at 6 to go play in the mud. bah. I have a test today tho which should be fuckin awesome as hell.  Cause… I studied. Yah. I know. Cool huh. -.- I’m half asleep still……… weeeeeeee ok nap time before these meds lose their charm. haha CHECK OUT MY NEW LAYOUT!!!

Mmm… especially when he gobbled up the Queen. Ahhh I miss this game.

She’s so fucking spoiled. haha. XD I took my shoes away from her… then I took my panties away… and she didn’t want to look at me after that. It was this same ordeal the night of the chicken finger incident. ‘Cept I got it on video this time. haha.

Oi… How have you all been? No luck finding the recipet for my flaming dildo but hey… whatever. They were going to replace it if they saw signs of damage but I was mostly interested in turning it on so they could watch it catch fire haha. :p (I doubt it would even turn on again anyway…)

I do have some changes coming up very shortly and I will be sure to let you all know about them.

OH– PS~ That last blog post… I had posted on private. My bad… haha. XD

My brother Jay came to TX this past week to hang out!!! (After him and his military buddies hit up New Orleans first… haha.) Anyway… I got to hang out with him a whole lot. My dad and his Mom were married for a while– through that marriage I had/have… 3 step brothers, a step sister and a (step) niece? Anyway… I haven’t hung out with them in AGES!! They called me out of the blue at the end of last week and said “Hey, we are staying in town at a badass hotel you should come hang.” So I did. My step niece is up to my shoulders now.. and wants to be a pop star. She also beat me up. My brother and all his military buddies were chasing after girls the entire night.. it was crazy. And I felt really bad because he brought me a bunch of cool patches and I thought he was only showing them to me… but he was giving them to me… and I left them on a table at a diner thinking he was going to pick them up. Oops…. ;-x Anywho. So– not too much online activity this week/weekend. I have pictures but.. I don’t think they’d appreciate being on a porn blog haha. XD plus most of them have my niece in them so that’s a no no. She won’t be able to be a pop star if she’s associated with me! XD